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1st<\/sup> Jan 1985 (Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 New Years Day. All the same.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Resolutions were to work very, very hard on all aspects of life. Do your best and leave the rest. Do everything smartly and wisely. Never lose temper and never, never give up. Do right thing always. Think always before leaping. Never work on instincts. Work fast, fast. Always be self-confident and do what you want and do it nicely and wisely. Don\u2019t think of awards and rewards.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 2nd<\/sup> Jan 1985 (Wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

First day of college in new year.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 3rd<\/sup> Jan 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had worn pants to college and it looked smart.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 4th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Meeta Ben\u2019s birthday and Meena Ben had to see a boy at Avanti. I went with Mummy and daddy to Matunga. The boy was OK. He was America returned and spoke with manners. Then in the afternoon we went to do shopping to all Matunga\u2019s best shops. Charu Ben gave Meeta Ben a shirt. Then in the evening we went to woodlands and then back home.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 5th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went to college wearing Jeans and Manisha\u2019s white shirt. It looked good. I felt damn good and smart. In the recess I went with Christine to Andheri station and came by train afterwards.. I had bad coughing problem in the train afterwards in train. It was embarrassing.\u00a0\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a06th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Full day watching tv. I had my periods today. First we watched saptahiki, then star trek, show theme,Mashoor Mahal, then regional film \u2018Bhavni Bhavai\u2019. It was fun.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I finished my book \u2018Passion\u2019s Promise\u2019 today and now I want to study very hard to get nice marks for board exams.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 7th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I didn\u2019t go to college for studying. Bhavna had come in the afternoon but we hardly studied anything.<\/strong><\/p>\n

The boy we saw for Meena Ben on 4th<\/sup> asked for second meeting. Meena Ben doesn\u2019t like him so much. But all are saying that family is good and Meena Ben cried very much at night.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 8th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went to college wearing new churidar for Kajal\u2019s. It looked good. But I felt very bored at college. At BK and OC stomach was paining. I felt very uncomfortable. I felt as if I was going to lose weight.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 9th<\/sup> Jan 1985(wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today morning all had gone to Centaur hotel for the meeting. It was at 9:30. Charu Ben and Ajay Bhai had come and 4 from our place. Still Meena Ben couldn\u2019t make up her mind. They went to Matunga atraight from there and came back at 4:00 p.m.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 12th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went to college. Whole day\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 went\u00a0 in copying notes.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 13th<\/sup> Jan 1985(sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today there was fair at our college. We all went there. Bhavna had also come and she met my friends for the first time. Even Rupa-gita had come. We didn\u2019t have much fun. Though it was without a bit of trouble.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today morning I had gone to Kora Kendra to get plants and the mali(gardener) there didn\u2019t give proper answers to me and talked quite nicely to other three girs there. I got damn bugged. Though even I was talking in mixed up language to him and wasn\u2019t talking smartly.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 14th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went to Bhavna\u2019s place to study. Bhavna went to college but I studied there. It was damn peaceful and fun. I like everybody in her place. All are good.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 15th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the morning I put mud in the plants and changed 1-2 pots of plants, I like doing gardening. I treasure the hours I spend for watering them. Then Bhavna had come and we studied a bit.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the evening we had gone to the market for buying vegetables and then we had gone to Minu\u2019s and Sapna\u2019s place. It was nice.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 16th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was our college day. Full day I couldn\u2019t do anything useful except thinking about how to get ready and all. I washed my hair and Meena Ben dried it and straightened it for me. She was sporty about it. I wore raw-silk churidar an it looked good. I had taken a pony. I had done make-up and in the college it was good to be with friends after so many days. But I somehow felt alone and wanted a friend. Yeah, a boyfriend.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0I felt dumb sitting there and seeing others doing all kinds of activities. While I sit here doing all kinds of calculations about life. I don\u2019t know exactly what I\u2019m missing. So, its better to do your best and do all you can do. Go about, meet people and live, yes really live. I attracted many glances but that does no good. I should be the best of girls and wait patiently. I\u2019m sure the Prince will come if I become a Princess. There are many other activities which will make me happy as well as busy. So, cheer up baby.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 18th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Tried to study but couldn\u2019t. There was match on tv. We lost to England. On Monday on Makar Sankranti day Bhavna had gone with Rajul to Amrapali and she told me something else that she had gone all alone. I felt damn bugged. Why should she tell me a lie. I even went to the extent of thinking of breaking our friendship. Whenever I sat to study, I always thought of that. I had gone out with her in the evening and she must have smelled something amiss that I knew.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 19th<\/sup> Jan 1985(sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

She confessed. I felt happy about it the whole day. She told me striking news. That Rajul and Sameer were going steady. She said that I must have sensed it. But I never had a single doubt. Rajul had even gone to Shirdi with Sameer\u2019s family telling all that she had gone with her friend. Bhavna said that on Makar Sankranti day they had gone to Sameer\u2019s place. I was dumb not to have sensed it.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had gone to college \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 and worn Meeta Ben\u2019s top and it looked good. In the evening all had gone to Manoj\u2019s engagement and I went to Bhavna\u2019s place. Bunty didn\u2019t allow us to come back at night.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 20th<\/sup> Jan 1985(sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had slept at Bhavna\u2019s place. We studied till late. At night I was frightened as it was the first time I had gone there after her grandfather\u2019s death. In the morning we went to play Badmington and there Bunty got angry and started beating and said no playing. I got damn bugged. He has become very Jiddy nowadays and beats everybody. He is good also at times. Full day I was reading the book \u2018The Ring\u2019. I just couldn\u2019t stop. It is by Danielle Steele about Germany at the time of second World war. Hitler\u2019s Germany. It is much crying type as all of her books are but I enjoy reading them.<\/strong><\/p>\n

There was a one day match and agin we lost to England though we fought back nicely. England\u2019s fielding and sportsmanship is good.<\/strong><\/p>\n

On college day ami gave me address of a pen pal. On Thursday my spirits brightened at thinking of it. I must not be so hopeful. I did a bit research on Germany. I\u2019ll write the letter tomorrow.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 21st<\/sup> Jan 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I couldn\u2019t stop reading the book\u2019Ring\u2019. I wrote first letter to Luitgard. I hope she writes back. I took full morning to write\u00a0 it. I have a rough of it with me.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the afternoon I went to Bhavna\u2019s place. But Bunty was there and we couldn\u2019t do any studying. I felt bored with Bunty\u2019s dadagiri. We made a big rope and threw a basket tied to it in the well. It was fun. We had gone to Ram Mandir. Nobody prays seriously there.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 22nd<\/sup> Jan 1985(Tues)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I at last finished the book. I\u2019m sureI\u2019ll miss it now. It was so good and I\u2019ll miss all the characters especially Ariana. It is good to have something that you really enjoy and like. In the afternoon, Malti Ben and Tiku Ben had come. It was fun to have them but I am always somewhat far away from them. And Meeta Ben always makes some excuses when she has to come alone with me to Dehrasar. She always goes with anybody else. I always get bugged about that. And I fervently missed college. I enjoy so much there. I like everyone there though I like everyone here also. But I\u2019m always happy there.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 23rd<\/sup> Jan 1985(Wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today I hd washed my hair and I went with Bhavna in the morning first to rajul\u2019s place and then to Post Office for posting the Germany letter. Then we had gone to the temple. I had taken a pony and felt very uncomfortable.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today at least I could study something. I put on the tape recorder and studied in the evening in the last room. I could at leadt keep my mind on studying otherwise I sit to study and all kinds of stupid and unprofitable thoughts come to my mind and I feel sad. I go on thinking about all kinds of insults and all such things which are far away when I\u2019m busy.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 24th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I tried to study French. Then in the evening Bhavna, Rajul and myself we waxed Bhavna\u2019a legs and hands making her hands sticky with the ready made strips.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I slept at her place.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 25th<\/sup> Jan 1985(fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Morning we went to play Badmington and I studied S.P. Bhavna had come to my place as all had gone out.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 26th<\/sup> Jan 1985(sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Started studying OC for Monday\u2019s exams.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the evening I went to B-wing terrace to see the plants in Yash\u2019s terrace. They have gone to stay somewhere else and the plants are dying. I asked Malay to climb there and putwater but he refused.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Then Bhavna, Bhumpi, Manisha, Bunty and myself, we went to the fair, to take snap and then after some work t o Dwarka. It was fun. Bhumpi had left her hair and all were looking at her. I slept at Bhavna\u2019s place and Bhumpi and me, we studied till 2:00 a.m.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 27th<\/sup> Jan 1985(sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went to Picnic to Mud Island. I dhouldn\u2019t have gone because of my Preliums tomorrow but all were going and I felt like going and after all Preliums are Preliums. I enjoyed there. Yashwant Mama\u2019s family, we four, Kanu Mama\u2019s 3, Malati Ben-Dilip Kumar and 2 from their family, Pankaj Bhai, Pragna Ben, Tiku Ben, and Nalini bhabhi and Pravin Bhai. We went int the water till our necks. It was fun. We returned at 8:45 p.m. and after we had our bath we looked like beetroots especially Meena Ben.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 28th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I got up at 7:00 and started studying. My head pained. I wanted to wear my new churidar but it was too loose and I got ready fast and went to the station. I felt awkward with Rupa-Gita at the start but then it was fine. The paper was damn hard but I\u2019ll pass.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the evening Tina had come and we talked and I couldn\u2019t study anything. After she went I had the feeling that I had a complex and everything I did was wrong. It must be because I was tired.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 29th<\/sup> Jan 1985(tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had the after effects of yesterday night\u2019s thoughts. I am more confident now.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 30th<\/sup> Jan 1985(Wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

The eco paper was not good and then I went to Malay\u2019s school for Parents Day. It was boring. Bhavna had also come.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 31st<\/sup> Jan 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We had English paper. It was good, as usual. I met Meeta Ben on the train while coming.\u00a0\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 1st<\/sup> Feb 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We had SP. I knew nothing in the morning. But the paper was superb. I had gone with Rupa\u2019s group to Rasraj. It was OK.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 2nd<\/sup> Feb 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I studied and in the evening went with Bhavna to Goyal and all.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 3rd<\/sup> Feb 1985 (Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today full day I felt bored. I read Reader\u2019s Digest (foreign copy) and it was real fun.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the evening we had gone out to Sundaram and we met Thakur on the way. He asked us to take Varsha Ben with us and we three sisters, Varsha Ben and Tinu went and enjoyed. Though I felt a tinge of complex with Thakur. I was not at best of mind. I cracked all silly jokes.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 4th<\/sup> Feb 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the morning I felt that I didn\u2019t know anything in BK and during the paper, I really didn\u2019t know anything. I felt bored to write the paper. Then exams were over at last. Six of us went to see \u2018Lava\u2019 at Gaiety. It was OK. My head pained when it was over. Then we came to santacruz and had icecream and I saw their school \u2018Rosa Manners\u2019. Aparna showed me all their places where they stood during school. I came home at 7:45. Mota Bhabhi, her Ba and Ba had come to stay at our house.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 5th<\/sup> Feb 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We were to go to Agashi with all elders, Meena Ben and I. But Meena Ben got her periods and I didn\u2019t want to go alone. In the morning I did all work I wanted to do. I liked working today. I felt good and did all my heart\u2019s longings which I couldn\u2019t take care during my studies. I\u2019ll not study until 11th<\/sup> and then I\u2019ll study hard. In the evening I had gone to Bhavna\u2019s place but she wasn\u2019t there. I waited and then came home with Bunty. Bhavna was at my house.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 6th<\/sup> Feb 1985(Wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had my periods in the afternoon. In the evening I was reading story book, Perry Mason when Bhavna\u2019s phone came and we went to market and library and tailor. It was fun.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 7th<\/sup> feb 1985(thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today in the morning, Manisha had come to give our clothes. She takes clothes and gives sometimes without washing and without ironing. Meena Ben, Mummy and I got damn bugged and I just asked her whether she had ironed Bhavna\u2019s midi as it didn\u2019t look like it and then in the evening her mummy said that she had ironed it and asked me what I had to do whether it was ironed or not. I felt damn bad.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today college was also boring and in the evening when I had gone to Monginis to bring cassette with bhavna, I fekt as if I wasn\u2019t behaving very nicely. Then Bunty didn\u2019t allow Guddi to see the movie \u2018Kalicharan\u2019 and I felt angry on Bunty. Malay had bought a friends cassette of \u2018Sweet Dreams\u2019<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 8th<\/sup> Feb 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I washed my hairs in the morning. I washed some clothes today. First time I washed new clothes all alone. Bhavna had come to see \u2018Kalicharan\u2019. I went to college. I felt damn bored. I attended only one lecture and that also I didn\u2019t do anything. I bought Nisha\u2019s book to copy notes. I saw Biren today. After college I came straight to Avanti. I met Dipa first and she was fun. She went on calling me \u2018Neelan. Neelam\u2019 Jawani\u2019s heroine. I was flattered. I felt very much left out at Meena Kaki\u2019s place.<\/strong><\/p>\n

We went to see Pankaj Udhas\u2019s programme at Kalu\u2019s ex-school and it was fun all the way. Pankaj Udhas was just gorgeous, so cute when he said \u2018Shukriya\u2019.\u00a0 Just seeing him and listening to him gave me a new hope of living. Jaya Bachhan and Raj Babbar had come. The crowd was dashing. I enjoyed with all of Kalu\u2019s friends. It was fun.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 9th<\/sup> Feb 1985(sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I came back home at about 10:30 a.m. with Deepa. She was going on telling me to stay at her place, then I asked her to come here and she came. She is lively and fun. In the afternoon we made a list of western and Indian songs for recording. I slept then and in the evening went with Bhavna to market. I was thinking that since last days I\u2019ve felt bored and have done nothing useful. Just wasted my time in looking good which however will be useless and it has landed me into many bad books. I\u2019ve decided to henceforth never feel bored and always be doing something you like. Never do anything you don\u2019t like and is not right. I\u2019m going to study hard for exams, then go for vacation toBangalore and then to typing and shorthand classes, study computer and management studies.<\/strong><\/p>\n

But the trouble is I always forget all I want to do. I\u2019ll remember this. And the best way is to do your best at all junctions of life and never give up and live and learn as you go on. Living is never so bad that you can\u2019t go further. Just have patience and faith.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 11th<\/sup> Feb 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Exactly one month left for exams. I made a time table. There are only 5 days for each subject. Bhavna went to Poona today.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 12th<\/sup> Feb 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today I studied from morning till afternoon and then had a hair bath. I left my hair open to Mita Ben\u2019s grand modeling show at Patkar. It was fun. All were looking good. My hair was a sensation. What a difference it made to leave your hair open. It attracted many people. Ajay Bhai, his friend Nemi, Babita, Kalu, Dipa, Priti, Gita all had come. It was fun. Though I was not in the best of moods. I felt conscious.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 13th<\/sup> feb 1985(wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went to college today to get the seat numbers and all. I had worn Stonewash pant and a loose mod shirt. It looked hep and I could feel it. It was fun and I enjoyed all the glances I got. Though in Borivli, I felt damn conscious.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today Lal sadlawala Bhabhu died. Today only Jayshree\u2019s and Suresh\u2019s marriage was also there. They made it simple. Today there was Expert(Accounting class) day. I couldn\u2019t go because of Bhabhu\u2019s death.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 14th<\/sup> Feb 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the morning again I went to college to get my hall ticket. I didn\u2019t have a snap so I cut the snap out of old one and gave it to them. I had worn new \u2018grey\u2019 midi Meeta Ben had made and everybody just loved the midi. It was fun.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0I couldn\u2019t study much afterwards. I read Perry Mason\u2019s book, finished it, studied for little while in terrace, went to temple with Meena Ben. I had worn two different type of chappals by mistake. I went to Kandivli, to Manisha\u2019s doctor.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 15th<\/sup> Feb 1985(fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was Aparna\u2019s birthday. I rang her up to wish her. I tried to study the whole day.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 16th<\/sup> Feb 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went to Aparna\u2019s birthday party. I didn\u2019t know what to give her and they all had a big laugh at home deciding what to give. It was fun at her place. Her school friends are big fun though I was a dummy at times, I enjoyed it. Her nephews were also good. Her building friends told me that I was sweet when I came out.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 17th<\/sup> Feb 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was Raju Bhai\u2019s marriage. I looked good at both times. There was a good crowd. It was fun. Kalu drove the car\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 in Avanti. Ajay Bhai was great fun. I had worn Chaniya Choli in the evening.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 18th<\/sup> feb 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bhavna had come from Pune on Saturday and in the evening I went with Manisha to her place. I met her Sanat Bhai Saab there.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 19th<\/sup> Feb 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Jasmine Bhabhi came today at home. I was acting without thinking at times and she said so openly. Dhrashti was damn fun. I got a letter from Luitgard. I was very, very happy. She is 6-4\u2019 height. Everybody read the letter.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 22nd<\/sup> Feb 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today I got another letter from Ahmet of Turkey. I was damn happy. He is 20 years old and 78 kilos and 6 feet tall.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was Bhumpi\u2019s farewell day and she was looking a heroine.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I bought a puzzle game from Bhavna\u2019s place. Ba and Mami had come to stay as there is a big Mahotsav and Diksha and Mal\u2019s in Borivli.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 23rd<\/sup> Feb 1985(sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I couldn\u2019t study anything. In the evening I was busy doing Bhavna\u2019s puzzle. It was damn fun and hard.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 24th<\/sup> Feb 1985(sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today in the morning at 5:00 we went to Yogi Nagar to start the new Dehrasar there at our flat. Daddy had given the flat of about 1 lakh rupees. He even put the flag on the Dehrasar. It was damn big business and we were among the chief ones and everybody was doing Jaisukh Bhai, Jaisukh Bhai.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Then there was Diksha of four at our side and we went there and saw four girls lead for Diksha. It was touching.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 5th<\/sup> March 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Our exams had started today. I felt damn stupid after so many days of sitting home and then going to college to give exams. My center is MK.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 9th<\/sup> March 1985(sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Exams are over. Today I had two papers. In French paper, there were only 6 students giving the exam and I felt damn bored. Shital had come to leave me and afterwards to take me also.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 2nd<\/sup> April 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bhavna went to Dubai today.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 6th<\/sup> April 1985(sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went to pay my fees for computer classes. Nisha and her sister Mita also joined it.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 8th<\/sup> April 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went on my first day of the classes. Anita and Lilac has also joined it.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 12th<\/sup> May 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I was feeling down in my dumps today. And after many days I\u2019ve opened my diary. I feel damn low nowadays. I know I can be damn smart and intelligent when I want to be and I think and do everything I do with my mind. But I\u2019m very impatient and lose my mind and do everything wrong at times. And for that I suffer and make others suffer.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0I liked a boy in Dwarkesh. I used to look at him when he passed. I didn\u2019t think then of the consequences. I know it was my fault. It is not good for grown up girls to stare at boys. But I did and somehow even he looks now and I blame myself for doing it. It was my fault. I\u2019ll have to face it and take care in the future. Even in the classes there are 2-3 boys. One boy smiled at me once and I smiled back and now I feel as if he\u2019s making a pass. I feel damn guilty and I somehow punish myself and then everything goes wrong.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Should I be selfish and just go on living happily or what else? I think I should live intelligently at all aspects of life and don\u2019t give up as it\u2019ll just worsen matters. Face all difficulties and consequences with smartness.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 7th<\/sup> June 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

My Birthday. It started only as a big disaster. I had my periods in the morning. Then I had washed my hair straight with conditioner and they were damn oily. I was to get my papers today and I got good marks. Wher I expected to fail I got 60-50 marks. Then it was raining damn heavily the whole day. Nisha, Aparna, Hemal, Rupa, Gita had come to my place. It was okay. I was not in my best of moods and very excited.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 11th<\/sup> June 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bhavna came back today.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 12th<\/sup> June 1985(Wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We were to get our results today. But we never expected the long queue for it. We had big plans to go to Open House after the result. But we left only at 12:30. I got 68%. I\u2019m quite satisfied. Bhavna got 59%, Rajul 58%, Nisha 61%, Aparna 64%, Jayshree 77%, Hemal 75%, Ami 71%, Rupa 65% and Geeta 74%. We all were satisfied. I had gone to Bhavna\u2019s place in the evening and she showed me all her shoppings. She has brought a Video and many nice dresses.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 13th<\/sup> June 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had put oil today in my hair and was at home all day. Didn\u2019t go with Bhavna and all to Sai Baba Mandir also because of the oil. I felt damn bugged with myself. I\u2019m putting beauty before everything else. That is bad. I better improve. In the evening we were searching for Malay\u2019s new bag and old umbrellas. They seem to have disappeared.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 14th<\/sup> June 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today I danced for the first time. We had a party at the computer classes. It was fun. In the morning we had classes. I had worn my pants and the Wrangler shirt, my birthday gift and I felt damn hep. Then we had gone to Nisha\u2019s place and then back to college to pay my fees. Then I went home came back again at 5:30 and enjoyed and then went to sleep at Nisha\u2019s place and came back today morning. The party was damn fun. I didn\u2019t know how to dance. In the starting only, Anil asked me to dance with him. I tried to and succeeded quite a lot but I felt damn funny and silly. Then I danced with many other boys and it was fun. I danced quite a lot and my hair was a mess. Anil was surprised that I had not gone to any social before. Even he is in our college and same standard. I had never seen him. Even he had not seen me. I enjoyed at Nisha\u2019s place also.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 16th<\/sup> June 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today from afternoon it started raining cats and dogs. It just poured terribly. In the afternoon we had gone to hear Maharaj Sahib\u2019s Vyakhan. I enjoyed it. He said that one should never get angry at anyone. And he made us promise to pay Rs. 10\/- if we lot our temper even once in 24 hours. Meeta Ben nevr lost once. We could see the effect of it in everybody after the Vyakhyan(speech). Everybody was in good moods. He also said that it is not bad to have enemies. Everybody has enemies. But it is bad to have enmity coming from us towards other. He also said that it is very hard to cheat a nice and good person. He asked us not to pur money in front of all other values. I was really touched. I try not ot lose temper. It is easy once you try. I always used to feel damn sshameful once I lost my temper.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 17th<\/sup> June 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Tina had a son today. We had gone to see her in the night. She had done a Caesaerean and she was somewhat unconscious.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 21st<\/sup> June 1985(fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bhumpi got her result today. She got 70%. She expected more. She wanted to go to NM where they are asking 80%. Bhavna, Rajul and I had gone to get the result from school.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 22nd<\/sup> Feb 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today there was a lecture of the principal Rai and I had gone to college with Rupa, Gita. I acted very silly and stupid. I had gone to Geeta\u2019s place afterwards and had lunch there.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Then in the evening I had gone to Bhumpi\u2019s friend Poonam\u2019s place. I enjoyed there. I liked her.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 23rd<\/sup> Feb 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had classes in the morning of 4 hours. Nisha had got angry as we didn\u2019t go to Juhu Beach on Recess and she was hungry.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 4th<\/sup> July 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today I had worn pants to college. My pony was looking bad. I felt as if I looked damn bad.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the evening I had gone to Rupa\u2019s place to see her with Bhumpi as she had done Jaya Parvati and her Jagaran (not sleeping whole night) was there. We stayed at her place overnight, I and Gita. Her brothers friend rajesh had come there and he used to see me while going to computer classes and he said that I looked cute and made passes. I felt bugged though it was flattering. Rupa and Gita were back answering but he didn\u2019t go, we were awake till about 4:00 a.m. We got up at 6:00 in the morning and got ready and went to college and temple. We were all feeling bored and tired but I had to go to take my System Analysis book from Anil. Kushala told me that in their class they teased Anil with some girl.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I was tired when I came home and slept till four. Then just now I took bath after putting oil.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Luitgard send her snap. She looks damn good.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 6th<\/sup> July 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I got my periods.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 7th<\/sup> July 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We had our System Analysis exam. We were only 10-15 students in one class and I mostly copied everything. The professor had not come and the peon was supervising.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the evening we went for a long walk. Masa, Masi, Mahendra Bhai, Varsha Bhabhi, Meeta Ben, Guddi, Manisha and myself. It was fun. Then we went to Datta to have dinner. Our Rikshawala was damn fun. He said that people go to college for fashion only and that Malay was good and there was fashion show in Mithibai and Bhavans was not good.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 9th<\/sup> July 1985(tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was Bhavna\u2019s and Nisha\u2019s birthday. In the morning I had cut a rose for Bhavna. But she didn\u2019t come and the rose was just left. I went straight from college to Santacruz. First to Aparna\u2019s place, then Jayshree\u2019s and then Nisha\u2019s. It was damn good party. We had taken snaps. I came to Borivli at 8:00 and went to Bhavna\u2019s place from where we went to Neelam. I didn\u2019t eat anything. I reached home at 10:30. I wasn\u2019t home from 6:30 a.m. to 10:30 p.m. I gave Bhavna a purse worth Rs. 50\/-<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 10th<\/sup> July 1985(wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was Hemal\u2019s birthday. I had gone to college, came back home and then went to her place again. I enjoyed at her place. She hads nice building friends. It was damn late by the time we finished and Meeta(Nisha\u2019s sister) asked me to stay at her place. I rang up Daddy. And Daddy got damn angry. Today I received Ahmad\u2019s (Pakistan pen friend) musical birthday card. It sings the tune of \u2018Happy Birthday\u2019. It went on & on and nobody knew how to stop it.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 11th<\/sup> July 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went to college from Nisha\u2019s place. I had worn Nisha\u2019s dress. The musical card was with me and I fekt damn frightened at times about it. I was afraid that all will sout at me when I go home but nobody said anything. I was very tired the whole day. Malay and Minar got their first pen friend address today. Malay\u2019s is from Italy and Minar\u2019s USA.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 12th<\/sup> July 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went for a hair cut from college. I wanted to cut it in shape and everybody got wild because I hadn\u2019t asked anybody at home.<\/strong><\/p>\n

At night I put Mehndi to Neha, her mummy and Kailash ben as Ashk Bhai\u2019s wedding is on Sunday.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 13th<\/sup> July 1985(sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went to college at 9:30. I wasn\u2019t looking good and I felt damn awkward and damn shameful because of it afterwards. Nowadays many times I feel awkward. Must be because of my new hair style.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 16th<\/sup> July 1985(tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today I had gone to college from 1st<\/sup> lecture only. And Smruit was ina damn good mood and we were laughing all the time. Then after class Anil asked me if I was free on Saturday and whether I would like to go for Social with him. I was taken by surprise. I told him I would tell him tomorrow and now I\u2019m in a big dilemma whether to go or not. Then when I was coming back from the platform, a guy who was recently introduced to Rupa asked me whether I would be friends with him. It was\u00a0 so stupid. I didn\u2019t know what to answer. He somehow took it that I would and went away and when I came home, I received a letter from Turkey pen-friend. All was damn good. Bhavna had also come home.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 18th<\/sup> July 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I told Anil I couldn\u2019t come as I hardly go for socials. He took it in damn good spirits.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 31st<\/sup> Aug 1985(Wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I wore Dipa\u2019s rad shirt and stonewash skirt to college today. It looked damn good. We had blood donation today and Nisha, Hemal were busy with it. While I was coming home from college, all alone in the train I felt damn giddy and I felt as if all around was going round and then I found everyone waking me. I had fallen down unconscious. It was embarrassing though I felt like laughing afterwards. I had many college friends in the train. My legs were paining and when I reached home I found out that I had my periods.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 1st<\/sup> Aug 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I didn\u2019t go to college today. Daddy didn\u2019t allow me. In the evening I had gone to Bhavna\u2019s place. Saigita\u2019s cousin had come with Bhavna and then Samir, Gita, and her Mami had cometo take him. Samir was fun but he was talking damn stupid at times and I fekt damn awkward because of that and therefore acted awkward. I should have ben more tactful.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 4th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We had gone to Powai today. It was damn fun. I didn\u2019t take bath but I enjoyed. I was in a good mood.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 5th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bhavna had her periods and I went to her place to cook. It was damn fun. I cam learn cooking at her place.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 6th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Anil is not feeling well. Parul told me that he had typhoid. I asked Jasbeer how he was feeling. He said that he had fever and that he was OK. He doesn\u2019t come to college since many days.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 8th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had worn my yellow churidar today. And in college, Ashok told me I was looking very beautiful today. I told him \u2018Thanks\u2019 that time but then I felt damn bad. I had told him once that I could only tell him \u2018Hi\u2019 and \u2018Bye\u2019. But then after some days he\u2019s asking me why only \u2018Hi\u2019 and \u2018Bye\u2019 and so he only talks whenever we meet at times. He asks questions and I say \u2018Yes\u2019 or \u2018No\u2019 or some short answer. And now this. I don\u2019t know what to do. All say that just ignore him. But he\u2019s such a Chitku. I can only hope that all ends well.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 10th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today there was a debate in college about \u2018Should students teach professors how to teach\u2019. It was students v\/s Professors. It was damn fun watching. The teachers won by 9-2. Miss Rai hoped that we would win next time.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 11th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today there was a movie \u2018Junglee\u2019 on TV. It was fun watching it. The songs were damn good.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 12th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was a busy day. In the morning I went to college. I had washed my hairs and had left them as I went to college. It looked good but I took a pony afterward. We all college girls were to go to see \u2018Saagar\u2019 at Pinky. The movie was good but some of our class guys were damn stupid. I felt damn bugged at them. Ami talks to them and when I asked her why she said she was in a fix and couldn\u2019t help but talk.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the evening Meena Ben, Pappa, Ketan hai, Jasmine Bhabhi, Dhrashti and myself went to see Kaka. It was not fun but OK. Kaka was good. Jasmine\u2019s baby Shahzan looked good.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 14th<\/sup> Aug 1985(wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the evening I had gone with bhavna to damietta\u2019s place and then to temple and then Gora Gandhi. It was fun.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 15th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today there was holiday in college because of Independence Day and I had gone to temple with Meena Ben and I asked God to make Anil better (he hasn\u2019t been coming since 2 weeks) and just on thought I said that if Anil came tomorrow to college tomorrow I would believe that he was fit for me.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the evening I went to Matunga with Malay and Daddy. It was fun. I had decided to act wisely and it wirked wonders. We saw a flat in \u2018Usha Darshan\u2019. Then we had gone to eat Pav Bhaji and I fekt somewhat shy and that was bad otherwise all was good.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 16th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

In college I didn\u2019t see Anil and I felt mad at myself for having such stupid notions but after lectures when I came down all Rupa-Geeta\u2019s friends said that they had seen Anil and I was just stunned.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the evening Rupa-Geeta had come home and I went with them to Goyal and then to Goragandhi. Bhumpi also joined us. Then we went to Sapna-Minu\u2019s place. Sapna is going to Amravati for her medical college and we all went to Bhavna\u2019s place and chatted. It was fun.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 17th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went to St. Zavier\u2019s college to see \u2018MALHAR\u2019 with Hemal, Priti and Heena. It was fun though we didn\u2019t get entry for most of the programme because of the crowd. The crowd was good. All were looking smart. We were damn tired at about 12:00 to 12:30. we had something at \u2018Suruchi\u2019 and came home. On the train I met Althea from school and she said that I was completely changed from school time.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bhavna had come in the evening. Ajay Bhai-Kalu came at night and Ajay Bhai fooled with Bhavna-Rajul on phone.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 21st<\/sup> Aug 1985(wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today I had gone early to college. I saw Anil \u2013 from college window. He was standing down. He is smart.<\/strong><\/p>\n

At 11:00 we went to see duet competition. I was left behind and I had to sit all alone and right on the 3rd<\/sup> bench. I felt damn bad at first but then I enjoyed looking at the singers and especially the musicians. It was fun.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 22nd<\/sup> Aug 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today Anil didn\u2019t even look at me. Nowadays I do feel somewhat inferior. I don\u2019t have confidence. I\u2019m not going to give him any bhav.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 23rd<\/sup> Aug 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had gone straight to Avanti from college. It was fun at Avanti. At Avni\u2019s place we ironed all churidars for Kalu\u2019s exhibition. Avni\u2019s mummy is big mouthed and taunted everybody. I had gone to Meena Kaki\u2019s place and\u00a0 then Kishore and Bharat Kumar had come and all of us went to Guru Kripa. Bharat Kumar was good and we enjoyed.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 24th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Tody was the grand exhibition. We arranged all churidars in the garage and once the rope broke and half of the churidars fell down. It was good. Mostly all relatives and buildingwalas came to see it. In the evening we went to Megh Mahal and I found Jasmine Bhabhi not liking to be with me. I felt bugged at first but then I thought that damn everybody. Why should I be bothered about what she likes. Let her do what she wants and I should do what I want. After all, world is not full of Jasmine bhabhi\u2019s, but there are people like Ajay Bhai, Bhavna, Meeta Ben, \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bhavin, and their likes.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 26th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today we had talent contest in college. I had worn Ajay Bhai\u2019s shirt amd I felt damn smart. I felt bugged first with upa-Gita but then Mita-Sheila-Aparna-Nisha were fun. I enjoyed myself<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 27th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

It was an Id\u2019s holiday.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 28th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I didn\u2019t go to college today as I had put oil and I got my periods today. Sameer won the elections of D.R.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 29th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was the elections of DR . Roopali had stood and I voted for her. But some Bhavesh won. Anil hadn\u2019t told me \u2018Hi\u2019 since last Thursday and today he told me \u2018Hi\u2019. I don\u2019t know what to make of it.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bhumpi had gone out to roam out with Rajesh and his friends and she said to Guddi that she\u2019s going with college friends. She met with some accident while coming back.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the evening Bhavna, Kaka and myself had gone for a long walk to Yogi Nagar and LIC.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 30th<\/sup> Aug 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was Raksha Bandhan. I tied Rakhi only to Malay. I missed Bunty very much and I felt bad for not sending him a Rakhi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Babita had come in the evening and I had gone with Bhumpi to Joshna\u2019s place. Joshna was good. I like her.<\/strong><\/p>\n

We had lunch at Mami\u2019s place. I enjoy at Premila Mami\u2019s place.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 31st<\/sup> Aug 1985(sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went to college all alone today and came back with Rupa-Gita, but they went in Gents compartment with Batuk.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the evening we went to see \u2018Ram Teri Ganga maili\u2019 with Lata Masi and Mahendra Bhai and Varsha Bhabhi and all. It was a very nice movie with nice songs.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 1st<\/sup> sept 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today in the morning was just the same, watching tv.<\/strong><\/p>\n

It was Minar\u2019s birthday and in the evening we ate the cake and had icecream. Then our house and Kailash Ben\u2019s house we went to Juhu Beach and then to woodlands. I had left my hair. Bhavna had also come.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Our exams are on 28th<\/sup> and I haven\u2019t started studying yet. I\u2019ll have to start now.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 2nd<\/sup> Sapt 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We had gone to Cooper Hospital for N.S.S. (social service) in the female ward. It was sickening. We were asked to talk with everybody. Some of them were suffering badly. A lady was crying as she had urinated and there were very thin ladies. I couldn\u2019t talk freely and I felt bugged. There were one-two girls who were damn fun.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Nowadays I feel very insecure. I don\u2019t know what to make of Anil business and I want to be that happy and carefree girl that I\u00a0 once was.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 6th<\/sup> Sept 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was Lilac\u2019s birthday and Nisha and nyself, we went to the Khokha market and bought earrings and necklace for her. Then after college we went to her place. I was in good mood and it was fun. I wanted to enjoy and I enjoyed. Not quiet enjoyed but I didn\u2019t feel sad or depressed.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I came home, put oil and slept till 7:00 p.m.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 7th<\/sup> Sept 1985(sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I tried to study. Sameer, Mama\u2019s youngest son had come in the evening and I gave him tuitions. It was fun.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Lastly I\u2019ve been trying to do my best in everything and it works damn good. I get frightened that I\u2019ll lose the confidence. But I\u2019ll try my best as it\u2019ll be me only who\u2019ll have to face my troubles.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 8th<\/sup> Sept 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I hardly studied anything. In the evening Bhavna, Kavita and myself we went to Goragandhi. Bhavna was telling about her own problems at home. They had gone to dandia Raas yesterday at N.L. school and came lat and Jiji got bugged. I slept at her place to study but we hardly studied anything.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 9th<\/sup> Sept 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had gone to college early with Rupa. In the last lecture, Anil had come to meet Jasbeer and I talked to him. Ami said that it was damn obvious that I was running after him. I felt disturbed by her words. Nisha and myself, we gave treat to others for passing our computer exams. Christine had also come and it was fun. Nowadays Christine, Aparna, Smruti and myself we have nice fun.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 10th<\/sup> Sept 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today we had tie day in college. Mostly many had worn ties and all looked smart. I had worn Rupa\u2019s daddy\u2019s tie, daddy\u2019s shirt and our black skirt. It looked good but when I came back I was somewhat too proud or too tired with ways of llife and thought I looked too good only to discover that I looked very bad when I came home.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Couldn\u2019t study much in the evening.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 7th<\/sup> Oct 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We had gone to a picnic to Lonavla. Yesterday night I had stayed at Nisha\u2019s place and today also Paresh and J.D. and their group had come. They are a lot of fun. But they thought of themselves as superior and left us. I felt damn bad butthen it was fun afterwards with Hemanshu and Hardik and our group and all.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 1st<\/sup> Nov 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Nowadays we do Diwali works and it keps us busy. Some of the people who had seen Meena Ben were said to be coming to our place and then we came to know that they weren\u2019t. I feel very bad for her. All this weakens her confidence. She was such a proud girl first. Though she still keeps herself high it somehow effects her. Sometimes I feel damn bugged with all this.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 2nd<\/sup> Nov 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We had gone to Meeta Ben\u2019s college to see the exhibition held there. It was fun. I had left my hair and tied a clip. It looked good. I felt good also.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 3rd<\/sup> Noc 1985(sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I\u2019m looking forward for a career. I don\u2019t know what would suit me. I feel like doing all courses. I\u2019m thinking of doing beautician course after college. At present I want to write a story. I\u2019m thinking of a\u00a0favorable\u00a0topic.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 10th<\/sup> Nov 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today in the evening daddy had rung up at Hansa Masi\u2019s place. Anju Ben has come and she asked about Malay and Meeta Ben and Meena Ben and not about me. But I shouldn\u2019t have worried as it was, she is very cute thing. I\u2019m only lazy. I don\u2019t want to care for people and I expet them to care for them. I at times don\u2019t even try hard to do my best.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 13th<\/sup> Nov 1985(wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was New Year\u2019s day. I got up in good spirits but somehow something went wrong and I ended up with a bad mood and a bad face.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Evening was good. I couldn\u2019t make up my mind whether to go to Matheran tomorrow.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 14th<\/sup> Nov 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I went. In car, I sat with Praful bhai, Malay, Minar. I felt bugged with Kailash Ben for making me do it. But I consoled myself that I would be happy once I reach there as Aparna would be there and then everything went about fine. I quite enjoyed there. In the evening when we went out there to roam, I could feel everybody looking at me. A good feeling.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 15th<\/sup> Nov 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Meeta Ben, Dipa and Guddi came with Bhabhi-Daddy and it was fun. We played a lot in the afternoon. We made friends with Jinal. Her phone number is 624698.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 16th<\/sup> Nov 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had gone with Manisha-Minar-Malay horseriding and the public were damn stupid. I heard somebody calling me \u2018Neelam\u2019 and other group flashed their camera at me. I fekt damn bugged at the time.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 17th<\/sup> Nov 1985(sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Our nieghbours at the hotel were five boys of whom one was Deepak. One of them Girish send a card to Guddi telling her his phone number and all. Guddi tore the card. It seems one of them were after me also.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 18th<\/sup> Nov 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We left to come to Bombay. We enjoyed in the train. But while coming back by Metador again Kailash Ben asked me to go by car and I rudely said \u2018No\u2019 and afterwards I sat crying quietly in the front seat. It was damn bad ending.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 19th<\/sup> Nov 1985(tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I got my result. And the shocking news were that I failed in 3 subjects. I felt damn bad.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 21st<\/sup> Nov 1985(thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I told Anil that I had failed in 3 subjects and he was very shocked. He passed in all. I saw the movie \u2018Bombay Ka Babu\u2019. It was good. Songs were superb.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 22nd<\/sup> Nov 1985(fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I got my periods. I didn\u2019t go to college. Whole day was spent reading book and writing letters to pen friends.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 30th <\/sup>Nov 1985(sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was our lollipop day. I expected some but I went prepared, if I didn\u2019t get any. I received two. One from a T.Y. boy.<\/strong><\/p>\n

As there was Tina\u2019s birthday tomorrow she took us to Wai Kiki.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 1st<\/sup> dec 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was Meena Ben\u2019s birthday. She went to see a boy today. Daddy came from Delhi today.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 2nd<\/sup> Dec 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was Meeta\u2019s birthday. I took a card for her. She called me at her place but I didn\u2019t go.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 4th<\/sup> Nov 1985(wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Daxa faiba, Kirti Fuva, and all had come and they stayed for the whole day. We had gone to National Park anf then to Neelam. Neelam had pened a Yankee doodle shop and they were giving free ice creams. We enjoyed there.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 5th<\/sup> Nov 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today Vincent told me that the boy who sent me the lollipop was psetering him to introduce me. I asked him to show who he was.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 6th<\/sup> Dec 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Vincent introduced me to Manoj. I expected someone chalu. But he looked decent. I didn\u2019t know what to tell him and said Thanks for the lollipop which I repented afterwards. After his stupid wordings I shouldn\u2019t have done it. But the mistake was done and I was left to repent it and pay for it. I\u2019d better watch my steps in the future.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 7th<\/sup> dec 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today was Parul\u2019s birthday. I didn\u2019t\u00a0 go to her place. I gave her a card. Today I went to have lunch at Bhavna\u2019s place as nobody was there at home and then I put oil.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 8th<\/sup> Dec 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today morning at 8:00 we went to juhu. Kirti Fuva and Mahendra Kaka and Ketan Bhai and Ajay Bhai and all families had come and we enjoyed ourselves. We went to radha Krishna afterwards and we ate like hogs there. I sat in the Maruti Van with the door open and it was fun<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 10h dec 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had worn pants(jeans) and new top and it looked good. But I was in bad mood while coming home from college.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 11th<\/sup> Feb 1985(wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today we had one lecture in college. I was just roaming about in college. I talked to Anil and he took an interview of me. I felt somewhat bored with it. Half of my answers were vague. I felt bad about it afterwards.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Jigar\u2019s birthday was today. They took a video tape about it and then we had gone to Neelam.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 16th<\/sup> dec 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I went with Raji to see the movie \u2018Sahara\u2019. Brooke Shields looked damn good. I had worn Kalu\u2019s pants and red Dipa\u2019s shirt. It looked good. We had gone to Akashwani and then to a shop to have coffee and milk shake and then we came home in Raji\u2019s car. It was damn fun. I always enjoy in town.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 18th<\/sup> dec 1985(wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bhavna\u2019s mummy came today with her Daddy and Bunty from Muscat. Bunty looks real good and fat.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 22nd<\/sup> Dec 1985(Sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had my periods in the evening. Good. As we are going for Jatra on the 25th.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 25th<\/sup> dec 1985(wed)<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the morning at 7:00 we started by bus, a TCI one. Our family, Lata Masi\u2019s family, Praful Bhai\u2019s family, Nanu Kaka and Hansa Masi. I vomited in the bus. Manisha, Lata Masi and Hansa Masi all were feeling sick. Whole day was spent on traveling. We reached Ahmedabad at 12:30 at night and all were tired.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 26th<\/sup> Dec 1985(Thu)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We left Mama\u2019s place (Kailash Ben\u2019s) with Masi and Dimple and went to Kalakund. Ate there then went to Songadh. In the evening we went to the temple there. It was a Kanji Swami temple and it was peaceful and quiet there.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 27th<\/sup> Dec 1985(Fri)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We went to Palitana. I was very tired while climbing down. I didn\u2019t do any Pooja but just prayed. The main God is Adeshwar Bhagwan the one whom I had prayed that day about Anil. We came down and drank Limbu Sharbat and had bhel, my favourite. And then we had gone to Bapji\u2019s place. It was very tiring day. We came back to Songadh.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 28th<\/sup> Dec 1985(Sat)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Anil Bhai anf Bharat Bhai had come to Songadh and we all got ready and went to Bhavnagar. We went to Balvatika first and then to our house. We met everybody. I enjoyed at the medical shop. In the evening we went to Gandhi Smruti and Takhteshwar. The latter was damn nice place. Keyur got hurt on his fingers.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 29th<\/sup> Dec 1985(sun)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today Mummy and Kailash Ben did yatra to Palitana as they couldn\u2019t do before. We went to Hastgiri. It is nice place with plenty of wind. But the temples have not been finished yet. We did some shopping at Palitana and left Songadh in the evening. We reached Vijapur at 12:30 at night. We got a single hall and all 18 of us slept in it.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Our driver was also real cute and he wanted to buy sari for his wife and Meeta Ben helped him.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 30th<\/sup> dec 1985(Mon)<\/strong><\/p>\n

We had our bath in Vijapur and from there we (Nanu Kaka, Hansa Masi and Meena Ben) went to Palanpur in a jeep to meet Tina. Chintu has become damn cute. It was fun there. We came back by car as it would have been damn cool by jeep. When we reached Ahmedabad everybody was waiting for us. We went to Love Gardens at night to do some shopping. Dimple and his brother were fun. I came back by scooter in the cold breezy night.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 31st<\/sup> Dec 1985(Tue)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Whole day went traveling. Morning everybody got ready soon (Masi had given us nighties to wear and she had send two nighties. I was thinking of taking the nice nightie and giving the shiny one when Masi came and took nice one and gave it to Meeta Ben. As if I deserved the bad one. This gesture burnt my mind and when we slept, I wept furiously so that I couldn\u2019t sleep also. Then I calmed down and slept) Morning I was back to my own self smiling at Masi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

We reached Bombay at night. It was good to be home.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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1st Jan 1985 (Tue) \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 New Years Day. All the same. Resolutions were to work very, very hard on all aspects of life. Do your best and leave the rest. Do everything smartly and wisely. Never lose temper and never, never give up. Do right thing always. Think always before leaping. Never work on instincts. … Continue reading 1985<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":143,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-69","page","type-page","status-publish","has-post-thumbnail","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/vibhashah.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/69","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/vibhashah.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/vibhashah.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/vibhashah.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/vibhashah.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=69"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/vibhashah.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/69\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":120,"href":"http:\/\/vibhashah.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/69\/revisions\/120"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/vibhashah.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/143"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/vibhashah.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=69"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}